Crossroads

So here I am...wondering what to do next. Somehow I knew I would get here. I knew the very first minute that I decided to make dolls for my girls that I was starting something that I would love and it has changed me and my dreams forever. I used to dream about making clothes for little girls and running into them on the street in one of my creations. I used to lie awake at night thinking about color combinations and picturing how they would look on my daughters. Now I dream about...yarn. Every time I get a new clothing I groan because that's time that I won't get to make a doll.

What does this mean? Does this mean I'm done with designing clothes for any other girls but my own? Honestly, I have no idea. I still have my Etsy and Petite Poire website up but I haven't been refreshing my listings because I'm trying to keep the orders down. I guess time will tell me where I want to go and what I want to do. In the meantime, I just sew...and spin yarn!

I have no idea what most Waldorf Doll makers do - I don't know if most of them make their own clothes or spin/dye their own yarn. I enjoy doing both, but there's something about hand spinning yarn that is downright addictive and soothing to the soul. Something that is not just medieval but prehistoric - I grin at the fact that I could go back in time 10,000 years ago and have something in common with those people. We could sit down together with our spindles and grunt at one another or something. I've been asked if I am going to buy my own spinning wheel and I try my hardest not to snort when I say no way. Yes, it would be faster. But so would buying your own pre-dyed/pre-spun wool from the store! That being said, I do buy some of my yarns pre-spun, mostly on Etsy, but also from a local Colorado yarn store called The Recycled Lamb. I enjoy spinning yarn, but my ultimate goal is to make a doll so I don't spend all of my time spinning. But I will say that there is a special place in my heart for each of the dolls that have hair that I have hand spun for them!

I do know that as of this time in my life I am enjoying making dolls. I'm not done yet. I don't know where I'm going, but I do know where I am right now and I'm happy doing it!